Thursday, November 11, 2010

Grandma


I am sure some of you are wondering why I haven't been doing much sewing lately, no posts of Abby wearing my latest creation, no rambling on and on about my obsessive sewing, etc. Well, the truth is I haven't even touched my machine in weeks. For the past few months grandma has been in and out of the hospital more times than I can count and the truth is at 94 there isn't much more they can do for her. We have had a couple of serious scares with her and the doctors are telling us it's just a matter of time. My mom  has been camped out at her side for the past few weeks and doing her best to hold it together and to be honest I really don't know how she is doing it. The three of us girls have always had a very special bond and have been very close. If you've followed my blog for a while you know just how special my grandma is to me and what a tremendous inspiration she has been in both life and our common bond of sewing. Lately, I have been doing a lot of reminiscing about the "Good Ole Days" when mom and grandma would dress me up like a little doll and take me into the city and we would go to lunch and then spend hours looking through pattern books and at fabric. Of course as a little girl, I couldn't truly appreciate this but now, well, I don't think I even have to say how much sewing and designing mean to me.....

Tomorrow, I leave to drive up to NY to spend time with Grandma and even though I am scared to death and my heart is just breaking I am going to do my absolute best to hold it together, because I know this will probably be our last time together. Mom told me that she thinks Grandma is hanging on extra tight until I get there and we get to spend time together. So, I am going to pack up the car with some of my favorite dresses that I have made for Abby, samples of my paper patterns, and my iPad loaded with photos to show her so we can "talk shop" something which I know will bring a huge smile to her face. I am hoping seeing her smile will inspire me to come home and sew up a storm... I already have the name for my next design which I haven't even thought up yet but I am going to name it after my grandma....Edith.

So, please keep us in your thoughts....and say a prayer for Grandma....and hope that I will soon be able to get back to what I love without having to fight back the tears...

Dawn

11 comments:

Jan M said...

The love and admiration for your grandmother is so obvious in your words. May our prayers sustain you during this trip, and whatever path the future brings. Grandmothers are so very special. Blessings to you and yours.

cre8tivecrys said...

I think the relationship you have with your grandmother is beautiful. Have a safe trip and I will keep you both in my thoughts and prayers

Laurie said...

My prayers are with you also. My mother in law is 95 too. It is always hard to see a life that meant so much to you in decline.

Remember to each there is a season. Take in as much of the shared experience you can and then share the wonder of who she is with others.

Tabitha said...

Can not say it any better than the ladies have said in their comments above me...cherish all the moments

Karen said...

You will be in my prayers my friend. Have a safe trip and call me if you need anything, and I mean anything.

Jan said...

Your gramma will be so pleased to know you are planning on naming a pattern after her. And I'm sure she will be thrilled to see all the cute dresses you have made and proud to know her granddaughter is making so many other people happy with her designs.

Dawn said...

Thank you all so much for your kindness and words of wisdom. This trip is very important and my time with my Grandmother will be very precious. I want to remember her smiling and talking about one of the things that she loved so much.

Amy said...

Praying for safe travels for you and a wonderful day with your grandmother. I truly understand your bond and relationship - my grandmother was the world to me and when I lost her a year and half ago, I really couldn't breath without crying my eyes out for weeks! Even as I type this I am tearing up - the whole your grandmother leaves in your heart is incredible - but be assured that you mean the world to her, also!

I know exactly what you are feeling and going through - so go and enjoy your precious time together - it will mean as much to her as it does to you!

Much love to you all!
~ Amy~

Karen said...

Thinking of you today Dawn . . .

Jana M. said...

What incredibly special memories! Thanks for sharing. I will be thinking of you. Your post brought tears to my eyes.

Sara said...

thinking of you and saying a prayer for her comfort and peace.
Hugs to you and your family

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