Friday, September 11, 2009
The Picture Says It All!
Sorry, I've not been around the past few days but...it's been a little rough around here. Abby's first day of kindy went well but that's were it ended. When I was putting her to bed after her first day I asked her "If she was all excited to go back tomorrow" her comment (with sheer horror on her face) "You mean...I have to go BACK?" She was not a happy camper! The past two days have been a bit of a nightmare. Lots of tears, a gazillion excuses (she's good) and worst of all she is very angry with me...because I am the one who does the morning routine of getting everyone up, motivated, fed, dressed, etc. Not to mention that we are pals and how could I do this to her? and send her away. On her first full day she got into trouble and had to sit during recess because she wasn't listening and she was talking too much...Imagine that! When she gets home from school she is just all over the place with her emotions....one minute happy the next sad the next seriously p!@#$% Off! Yesterday afternoon she completely fell apart and curled up in my lap and cried and cried because she said she "missed me so much and school is too long and it just sucks!!!" It just broke my heart. I held her close and wiped away her tears and told her how much I missed her too. Honestly, this is a tough transition for both of us.
I have to admit that I am a bit hyper-sensitive after what happened to Elliott in kindy and how it changed him and his spirit and I won't let that happen to my Abby. But I also know that I have to give it a little time to see if she adjusts and really loves it or not. I am ready to pull her out if I need to, but I want her to give it a chance. In principle, I think she will love it. All those kids to play with and all the fun activities, but the regimen and rules might be a bit much for her. Because my kids didn't go to preschool and I chose to keep them at home with me they are not at all used to so much structure. Therefore Abby is lost and confused about sooooo many rules and regulations. She is so much of a free spirit she doesn't understand why she has to stand in line like a little soldier and why it's not okay to fly like a fairy to the lunchroom. Actually, it's very sad. As, I write this post I even question myself as to why I am sending her. But I promised myself to give it a chance and not jump the gun. Thank goodness the weekend is almost here.